The YES Factor

Have you ever met someone who just seems to get everything they want or need as easily as snapping their fingers?

Lately I’ve been wondering  just why it is, that some people always seem to have doors opened up for them, regardless of their circumstances or level of  personal wealth.

So why is it exactly that some people just seem to lead charmed lives?

By this I don’t mean that ‘charmed people’ necessarily always have the biggest homes or the best careers. In fact, sometimes their levels of personal wealth can virtually be non-existent, yet somehow, every time they ask for something it is given to them.

They can be the parents on welfare who always seem to have aid organizations falling all over themselves to offer food, clothing, rental assistance, Christmas hampers and so on, while the family next door, in exactly the same circumstances can’t even get an aid organization to return their phone calls.

Or the man with everything, who gets caught in the rain and has a stranger offer him an umberella, just at the moment he needs it.

Do you know the kind of people I mean?

The kind of people for whom everything  always seems to fall into place.

Regardless of whether or not they have earned it or deserve it.

In Australia we call these kind of people ‘arsey’.

They just seem to have good luck with everything they do, and even their mistakes somehow turn into fortunate outcomes.

The man who misses the bus that breaks down, the student who fails to finish their assignment on time then finds their teacher’s away, the job applicant who misses out on a lesser position only to be offered a better position the next day.

I’m sure you could add countless examples of those who appear to be living ‘charmed lives’ from your own personal experiences.

But what I want to know is,  what is it about these people that makes YES happen?

Is it just luck?

Is it timing?

Is it personal charisma?

Do they have the word YES somehow stamped into their DNA?

Or is it a virus that you can catch like the flu?

Can you even become a YES magnet if you weren’t born with it?

Just what is it and how do you get it?

How can those of us who most need a good old fashioned YES, become one of the fortunate few for whom the  response YES  becomes, not just one of a multitude of possible options, but instead a fore gone conclusion?

Family Violence…. Teenagers and the lack of support for families dealing with teenage violence.

After spending the past few weeks dedicated to contacting several different services in order to get help regarding my daughter’s behavior, I have come to the conclusion that no-one particularly cares about the impact that violent children have on families.

This is the check list for what qualifies for abusive behavior:

Physical, verbal or emotional abuse including being physically harmed, being threatened with physical harm,  being sworn at, being repeatedly called derogatory names, having your parenting capabilities undermined, being prevented from accessing help, being isolated by your abuser or being held against your will for periods of time, being made to feel that you are worthless, unimportant or insignificant.

My daughter’s actions qualify as abusive on every level, yet because she is a child, the assumption is somehow that her actions are not serious and do not cause the same level of harm that the actions of an adult, behaving in this way, would.

I can tell you categorically that when you are being punched, kicked, tossed around and sat on by a person who is physically bigger and stronger than you are, their age makes little difference.

If anything it is scarier to know that your abuser has an incredibly limited range of insight as to just how much harm a human body can take and what the broader consequences of their actions might eventually be.

Yet despite this, whenever I have asked for help I have repeatedly been questioned as to how old my daughter is and when I tell them, there’s an awkward silence followed by the comment that ‘it is normal for teenage girls to experience heightened levels of aggression due to hormonal changes’.

I’m sorry!

Normal for who?

The child of Godzilla?

She is punching me, kicking me, threatening me with knives, telling me she is going to kill me in my sleep, holding me captive, sitting on me and taking away my phone and car keys so that I can’t go for help.

How is this normal teenage behavior?

And if it is normal then how on earth do other parents survive it and why is no one else talking about it?

Despite this, the attempts  to ‘normalize’ my daughter’s behavior continue on unabated by the agencies meant specifically to help in situations of domestic violence.

To add insult to injury these rebuttals of my daughters violence are then accompanied by a check list of actions recommended for me to take in order to discourage her supposedly ‘normal’ behavior.

Simple things like taking away her access to friends, hobbies, denying her privileges etc.

This check list now makes me want to scream but instead of screaming, usually at this point in the conversation, I try instead to remind whomever I’m speaking to that my daughter is physically, verbally and emotionally abusing me.

The response is usually the same.

‘We don’t deal with violent children. Have you tired Relationships Australia, Head Space, Centrecare’ etc……..

Have I tried them?

Yes I bloody well have and they don’t deal with violent children either.

No one does.

The message that I am getting loud and clear is that domestic or family violence only counts if an adult is committing acts of abuse.

That any child committing acts of domestic violence can only be seen to be doing so as the result of bad or ineffective parenting practices.

So it’s your fault, go away and deal with it.

The fact that my daughter is as big and as strong as an adult, yet without the foresight and ability to fully comprehend the consequences of her violent actions, apparently means nothing to these people.

And why should it?

If she seriously harms me I guess all the bleeding hearts will come out with the defense that she’s a child, she can’t possibly fully understand the harm she is causing’.

But I can and I have tried my best to tell you…. But you refused to listen.

By the way even Zemanta can’t offer up any articles that are truly relevant to this topic.

 

The Myth of Motherhood

How can it be,

That,

Those,

Tiny fingers and toes,

Grow into fists and feet,

That punch,

And kick,

At the same soft flesh,

That once,

Was their home?

How can it be,

That,

Those tiny lips,

Whose smile,

Once lit up my life,

Now hurl,

Words of abuse,

Directly at me?

How can it be,

That,

All at once,

That which was whole,

Has shattered,

All around me,

Leaving me,

Only the shadows,

Of a now,

Non-existent,

Violence free,

Life?

How can it be,

That,

My destruction,

Has come,

Quite literally,

From within me?

Is this the biggest  myth,

Of motherhood?

That while every child,

Might be loved,

Not every mother,

Will be.

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The Mute Mother

For the last 6 months I’ve been trying to deal with an increasing problem.

My daughter has become incredibly violent.

She slaps, punches, kicks and in general throws me around like a child’s toy.

All the while screaming at me for my many ( well at least in her eyes), parental failings.

She is now at the point where she pins me down on the sofa and places her hand over my mouth so that she can hold me a mute captive while she rants and raves at me.

I have tried my best to understand her.

To listen to her when she screams at me that she no longer wants an Autistic brother.

To react to her words  not from a place of anger or sadness but from a place of care.

And I can understand that she is tired of dealing with Autism in her home.

I know that the reason she doesn’t want to be formally assessed for Asperger’s is because she so desperately does not want to be linked to the kind of Autism her brother has in any way, shape or form.

She doesn’t much care for the distinction between high functioning and low functioning Autism.

To her Autism is what her brother has.

Not what she has.

And I can understand that. I truly can.

She has after all grown up seeing the way other people automatically try and dismiss her brother out of hand and she knows that she does not want that life for herself.

But what I can’t understand is why she is choosing to attack the one person who openly accepts her without question, me.

She keeps telling me that she wants everything to be fair and that if her brother doesn’t get in trouble for doing things, then she shouldn’t either.

In a very literal interpretation of her words, to some degree, her logic makes sense.

However, what she is failing to understand is that when her brother lashes out in anger, he does so because he has lost his words, he is quiet literally mute because of his frustration.

His actions are not premeditated.

They are reactionary.

They are not preceded by hours of yelling and screaming abuse at me.

They are not designed to shatter me or cause me as much emotional and physical harm as possible.

Her actions on the other hand are designed to cause harm.

She knows when she punches and kicks me that I am not a toy.

She knows that when she pins me down and shoves her hand over my mouth that she is doing harm.

She knows that when she tells me I am worthless, useless and hated, that her words wound me.

She also knows that there is a right way and a wrong way to treat people.

Asper girls know right from wrong just the same, if perhaps not more, than everybody else.

So I know that she knows that what she is doing is wrong.

Yet she is still doing it.

I’ve tried talking  to mothers of (neuro-typical) teenage daughters about this and they all smile and say ‘oh yes my daughter turned into a hell cat at that age too’.

But when I ask them what their daughter’s behaviours were like, mostly it’s just a case of back chatting, slamming doors or throwing a few random items around the home.

Their version of a ‘hell cat’ is nothing like the breed of fury  I am facing.

I am beginning to wonder just what version of a ‘hell cat’ I now have inhabiting my home because those other girls sound like kittens compared to my daughter.

If anyone can relate to this please let me know because right now I’m feeling completely out of my depth with this.

 

Bite Me…… Indeed!!!!!!!

The  billboard erected on the site of our local petrol (gas) station, directly across the road from our local supermarket, regularly promoted ginormous versions of trendy products.

As kids we grew up absorbing whatever images it presented to our eyes every time our parents filled up their car with petrol or went shopping for food.

In other words, at least twice a week, we drank in its advertising message, whether it was aimed at us or not.

As with all advertising it wasn’t something that I consciously thought about while I was growing up. Of course there would be the times when the billboard displayed some huge glowing version of the latest toy or movie that made it the topic of full-blown playground conversation, but apart from that,  though it was always seen, it wasn’t  generally spoken about.

So common place had that petrol station Billboard become that as I progressed through my early teenage years  it became a local meeting place for many us. ‘Meet you under the Boards at 12.00’.

Then one day in my late teens, the Billboard began hosting an image that became the highlight of every teenage boys dreams.

It began with a larger than life set of female breasts in a skimpy bra, accompanied by an incredibly flat, tanned and well toned stomach  that flowed flawlessly into  extremely high cut bikini underwear on a model with no hair and whose legs were amputated at the thigh.

At that size, as you can imagine, the female form supposedly hidden beneath the flimsy fabric of the underwear, was incredibly detailed.

The caption plastered at the bottom of the semi naked woman  was “Bite Me”.

Bite Me Indeed!!!!!

After a month of being confronted with this image and hearing the boys go on about it, my friends and I began to avoid the Billboard.

It no longer served its purpose to us as meeting place.

None of us wanted to be seen hanging out beneath this male image of female perfection.

We soon  found however, that although we had chosen to avoid being associated with the Billboard, we could not on the whole avoid either seeing it, or having to deal with the comments it instigated.

We all needed petrol and we all needed groceries and we could attain neither without confronting the larger than life female anatomy that glowed like a false religious beacon  over  both the petrol station and the grocery store.

Worse still, both the petrol station and the grocery store were constantly lit up of a night-time to prevent theft.

This meant that the Billboard took on even more of an ethereal glow and became more noticeable in the wee hours of the night.

After two months of being forced to confront  this image my friends and I decided to  do something about it.

We formed a little gang of women ranging in age from 16 to 40 (yes for those of you who are astute this included both mothers and daughters) and we began hollowing out eggs and replacing their contents with paint.

We’d figured out that, due to the perpetual lighting up of the Billboard, we’d have to approach it from a distance, this meant finding a way to deface the Billboard from behind the relative safety of the  petrol bowsers metres away from the board itself.

After a few false starts, (we’d tried paint bombs (balloons filled with paint)earlier in the week but found that our strike rate with this method was so poor that the next day our efforts where hardly visible)so we settled on eggs.

We made up a healthy supply of ammunition and planted ourselves in the dead of night behind the bowsers.

As the first few eggs hit their mark we cheered on the splurges of purple and red paint that began to spread across and smear that ‘perfect’ image.

Needless to say we lobbed each and every single egg we had (around 40 after several nights of planning) at that Billboard.

By the time we’d finished our rainbow of colors had infiltrated the Billboards image and turned it into an abstract art work that masked its former delineations.

Gone were the barely covered, larger than life breasts. Gone were the hairless thighs with their perfect groin. Gone were the indentations beneath the thinly veiled fabric that highlighted the model’s female genitalia.

We left that night covered in a form of female satisfaction of our very own.

The loss of the Billboard was lamented loudly by some men who suddenly began spouting about the ‘danger of graffiti.

It  made the local newspaper and even induced a flurry of calls on the local radio stations chat line.

Once the dust had settled it became clear that our actions were supported by many of the quietly spoken mothers within our community who began to express, at the suggestion that the board be reinstated with a new version of the old poster,  their discomfort at having to expose their children to the initial Billboard poster.

That particular poster was never reinstated and not long after a poster promoting a new kids movie appeared in its place.

This was in the late 80’s. Now such advertising imagery is accepted as being common place and removing it is no longer as simple as throwing a few paint filled eggs at a Billboard.

More is the pity.

But it hasn’t always been that way and I think that is the thing that we need to remember.

The recent influx on our TV’s and in our magazines  of unattainable and unrealistic representations of women hasn’t always been so.

It is a form of  female representation that needs to continue to be challenged.

We simply need to find a new way to get out message across.

The Sexualisation of Pink Balls Are teenage girls facing a crisis in femininity?

Rising rates in the number of teenage girls committing violent crimes and participating in  acts of bullying really do make me question just what is going on with ‘our girls’?

When I look at media representations of women all I see are  overtly sexualized images of what a ‘woman is supposed to look like’.

Yet accompanying these images is the idea that women are also supposed to compete with, and even beat men, at their own games of power and control.

There appears to be a new genre of female being portrayed within the media.

Women who look sexy, yet are nothing short of ballsy in their speech, mannerisms and attitude towards life.

Think of  pop stars such as Pink.

A woman who initially made her mark by dressing sexually provocatively,  yet who was at the same time singing aggressively about the need to  throw the traditional subservient  and distorted female ‘role ’ in the trash can in songs such as “Stupid Girls”.

Don’t get me wrong, I agree with the message that women should no longer automatically be seen as being subservient to men, but, when your  young teenage daughter  starts using the Pink ‘fuck you’ attitude to try to justify attempting to leave the house dressed like Paris Hilton on crack, one can only surmise that there is definitely something wrong with the way the messages of both femininity and female independence are being portrayed.

So what is it that is going so wrong?

Could it possibly be that those of us who live in the real world are clued into a secret that our daughters are yet to learn?

That as adults we all know that there is no way that a young woman who dresses like a proverbial tramp, ignores her schooling and instead engages in bullying or aggressive behavior,  is ever going to successfully compete with men in terms of either life or career success?

Unless you are a rock star, and even then, if the truth be told, this simply just does not happen.

Speaking of ‘it simply just does not happen’,  neither  does the ideal that women must  shout, speak up and speak out against female injustices by becoming as loud and competitively aggressive as men, win women any positive points either

If it did then we would all have by now seen a positive change  in the way females are portrayed in the media.

There has been no real positive change.

So here’s a simple truth:

Female aggression does not  cancel out male aggression.

Instead all it does is up the level of aggression occurring in society and lessen the existence of genuine care as a whole.

Yes sure we may now have some celluloid female role models but even if their attitudes are ‘kick ass’ such as Laura Croft in Tomb Raider, who beats the bad guys and saves the day, she still remains visually heavily sexualised.

So what sort of message does this form of representation send out to young girls?

That now, not only are they expected to kick mens asses, but  they must also look incredibly ‘hot’ and sexy while they are doing so or it simply won’t count?

Really it’s little wonder that young girls are getting the message of independence confused with the message that all successful women must also be some sexualised version of an aggressive dominatrix.

We need to be questioning  not just the overt sexualisation of young girls but the manner in which that sexualisation is also being presented hand in glove with the idea that being  aggressive (both physically and verbally) is the fastest way for females to achieve success.

In the real world the two messages simply do not go together.

 

Panopticon of the Lost

The Complete Book of Outer Space

The faceless meet,

In a parallel world

Where men,

No better than animals,

Pace,

Their  caged,

Gait,

Locked,

In tier upon tier,

Of amoebic cells,

Divided one,

Against the other,

Signalling our futile attempt,

At the separation of the state,

Of man ,

From monster,

Pretending as we do,

That cruelty and crime,

Belong to some mystical other,

Criminals are not just men,

With different ways of being,

No,

They are men from outer space,

Men somehow,

Not of our race,

Why do we keep telling this lie,

When the evidence of its fallacy,

Lingers on,

Metal stairs,

Mental stares,

Altered  states,

Why do we still believe,

That all bad men,

Can be watched and controlled,

Surveilled,

By good men,

The keepers of justice,

Who walk only a minute of the mile,

The Victims of crime,

Endlessly  travel,

While the monsters rest,

Restrained by television sets,

Behind the bars,

Of key-less locks,

And the synchronised eyes,

Of tax payers cameras.

We wait and watch,

Surveil the lost,

And carry the cost,

Knowing that in truth,

Alien or not,

Our methods of separation,

  Are ineffective.